I'm curious.
There doesn't really seem to be an answer, at least not one that I like.
Well, the answers I do like don't make sense.
Although, does death make sense?
Existing and then not?
Humans are atoms and particles and bits and bobs all vibrating together.
But we're not the same atoms, particles, bits and bobs we were born with.
And yet I have memories from years ago.
It's my brain and my body, but those things have been replaced and I am still here.
From a physical perspective, however, I am literally an entirely new person since my ex dumped me.
New half a decade, new me.
Energy cannot be destroyed, so when I die, what once made me will continue with the universe.
But what happens to my consciousness, my awareness, my memories? Those things that have already survived a form of death - where do they go?
Energy also cannot be created, but energy had to be created at some point...
Or it just existed.
Something just existed.
Does that something give my fleeting life permanent worth?
Do I have a purpose to find or just an illusion to create?
Sometimes I'm curious.
Sometimes I'm just fucking terrified.
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